I live in fear of Everyone
I am no longer talking
Speaking the words I am meant to say
Telling the feelings deep inside
No longer

I am no longer trusting
Believing the lies
Living in the memories of the never there
No longer


The cuts are from the pain you caused
The pain from watching you walk away
The scars are the memories of what was fake
The unreal laughs and smiles we shared

I promised I wouldnt release my pain this way
Relasp
The tears come
Heart turns black
The blade goes until dull
Wrist turns red

Who knows?
One day the blade may turn directions
It may run verticle
This blade might finally end the suffering
Who knows?
Tonight might just be that night